[This post was originally published on my old blog site, underworldgoddess.com. I hope you find it well here. The published date here reflects the original publication date].
So, one of my New Year’s resolutions was to write or create something every day. I made it full well knowing I wouldn’t be able to create something every day (stuff at my real job doesn’t count), but I wanted to shoot for it nevertheless. It didn’t have to be much – a paragraph, a piece of a webpage, a PhotoShop collage. It didn’t matter what it was, just that I was creating something.
Needless to say, I haven’t lived up to the goal, as you can see from my last post on December 22.
I started this blog because I have a lot to say. I have a SpringPad page full of blog topics as diverse in subject matter as my gap in posting is long. So what’s the problem? I’m worried about not really saying what I want to say. In short, Procrastination. That’s the crux of my problem. Sure, laziness is there, too, but if I had to choose one barrier to achieving pretty much all of my goals, but especially creative goals, its procrastination. They say knowing is half the battle… We’ll see.
Why procrastinate? Simple. By writing and publishing, it’s out there. Not just set in stone More permanent. My ideas, thoughts, ramblings, mistakes will be on the internet pretty much forever. Even stone weathers away eventually, but not the web. I started my blog because I wanted to share my ideas, and in doing so, I wanted to constantly reshape my own thoughts about a lot of things, ideally through feedback from readers, by mutual enrichment. This wasn’t about writing the next “Great American Novel.” This was meant to be more campfire chat.
So, why should I let procrastination impact me at all? I guess because I still want everything I write — to sound awesome. I need to get over that. I’m going to change my mind. In fact, I hope I change my mind if it makes sense to do so. There will be times when I make little sense. I’m probably never going to sound like Twain or Hemmingway. I’m not a brilliant thinker; I’m no Einstein, Kierkegaard, Plato, or Socrates. I don’t have unlimited time to research perfectly before I post. I may get things wrong and make mistakes (which I hope you’ll call me on), and sound ineloquent. I may have faulty thinking on a topic, or not think things all the way through. It’s going to happen (as this post proves).
I’m only human.
But I have things to say, and goals to achieve, and letting procrastination control my life must end. My resolution was to create or write every day, not to be amazing at it. Not right away. So, I’m not reading through this one more time (already have twice); I’m just going to post and send this to the ether. Carpe diem. It’s only a blog!
Here’s my shot at achieving that resolution, and kicking procrastination’s ass, at least for today.